Thoughts and Ramblings of a Burdened Mind

Stuff we often do but we never realize!

2008-12-04T20:51:00.000-08:00

Hey-y-y Yo!

Here are a list of things that I think we often do but have never gotten round to realize:-

Do you notice how we keep going to the fridge, opening it and checking its content thoroughly even though we know very well there's nothing worth munching in that damn box?

Have you ever laughed while peeing? Do you notice how the flow of the pee changesdirection as you laugh? What about Sneezing while peeing? Notice how ur pee stops when u sneeze? *or am i the only one gross enough to experiment this?*

Why does darkness exist, but NOT LightNESS?urghh...english..*rolls eyes* *in it's antonym context of course* (see? theres a red underline under Lightness..grammatical error haha)

Notice when we play games on the ps2, especially the racing and football ones..our body will swerve with emotion.. kalo kereta mo drift pg kiri, badan pun ikut pg kiri.. kalo bola mo sampai pg tempat gol, badan sma joystick pun tepigi depan...hahahaha!

Have you ever fed a little toddler? notice that as we shove the spoon in the baby's mouth..our mouth opens too? "nah boboi..momom..buka mulut..aaaaAAAA" *mulut sendiri pun buka*

Have you ever eaten something really2 bitter or absolutely preposterously distasteful? Will you search frantically for a piece of chocolate, candy or drown the taste with 3 spoonfuls of rice? I always have...and it works! Hahaha...

Remember how we used to play tag when we were kids? In Sabah we call it 'main bubut2'..or kejar2(for those who grew up in Peninsula).. Notice how we hold our breath as we hide? hehe...

Notice when a guy imitates the way a girl talks to their friends (usually negatively) they will make their voice sound higher in pitch than usual, with the most shitty facial expression they could muster? Must they?

anything else? please comment:)
*you know what this means? This means i have so much free time on my hands to be thinking of shit like this* >_<

I'm BAKK!!

2008-12-04T18:11:00.001-08:00

Wahahaha!
FINALLY!!!!

I got this little bloggy here up n running again..
well...at least for the time being.*in a small voice*

To those very2 few (n countable) people following this oh-so-random blog, I wish to express my deepest regrets, and I'm very sorry for the very long..uhm...'hiatus' (err...okay) in between this post and the previous one...

Seriously... I wonder what i have been doing so far.. 1st sem came and went like.. Nerubian Weaver on Shukuchi with boots of speedo(eeew? jenama swimming trunks?)... in other words... really fast..!

One moment, i was yawning in my group discussion on Arthritis..and the next moment, here I am sitting in front of my 'Arthritised' laptop (it has evolved into a DESKTOP - because the damn hinges suddenly decided to coat themselves in rust *nvmlah, laptop lama*) easing my guilt as a blog owner yg... pemalas mau kasi update blog..

*buat gaya perempuan cibai*Its like ~...huh?

Anyway...I'm back:)
And more posts will be published!!!

*Random stuff though, mostly...*

Thanks for keeping up people!!!! :)
Thanks for reading..!
And...
thanks for not puking!!!! >_<

The evil monster

2008-06-08T23:14:00.000-07:00

The frightening monster
strikes again.
Making the children choose
Between two Loves
is Evil.
Big sister leans her head on the wall
Listening
while hugging Little brother
as he clutched Big sister's hands.
Hearing Father slap Mother.
Hearing them yell at each other.
In languages of the Adult World.
The door slams.
Mother's eyes are Red.
The children hopes the evil monster will leave them alone.

Tribute Post to the 2 people that I will die for - My Mum and Bro

2008-06-08T19:51:00.000-07:00

I just simply love them so much. Unconditionally.

My mum, because there never was a day that she has not stood by my side...
There never was a day she failed to protect me..

regardless of my rantings and stubborn nature..

Frail and mid-40s, but yet the most beautiful and strongest woman on earth, just like all mothers.
Resilient and durable..she remained steadfast all through our hard years..
She didnt recoil nor wince no matter how bad life treats her..
She taught me stoicism..
and most importantly, she made me realize that life's too short to bother..
and actually, we we don't need much if we have God, a couple of great comrades and our family by our side..

And my bro.
The one and only companion in my whole entire life whom i can trust with my whole life..
That one segment in the many myocardial cells of my heart i shall bring to my grave, alive and beating..
One of the few pages of my life i have bookmarked in case i need a smile..especially now, in my hardest of times.
My DoTA and CS pal, pillow chatting buddy, the only person i could swear vehemently with..:)

You know..after everything I've been through, I realize that at the end of the day, when all else fail..when all u can see is a battlefield of fallen soldiers, the only people who'll remain standing beside you, will be your family.
I'm sure u agree with me..

I'll die for them if I have to.

Harga minyak makin naik, Kereta budak2 medic UMS semakin bertambah?

2008-06-06T22:57:00.000-07:00

Hmm..
New sem. New cars.
Including mine...(just for convenience)

But..after celebrating Hari Kenaikan Minyak Yang Melampau..

*iklan kijap*
-What a day it was.. my mum asked me to isi tangki.. full blast!! And at the petrol station, my..a wonderful scene.. Old friends chatting, Old people complaining, cute guys in Lancer evos, lorries and kancils lining up..all for the same universal goal.. If not for the want of a full tank, I think the other reason must be thinking up of a plan to put a bomb in the government's backyard..-

But i wonder..after this..
Will i still be able to drive in UMS?
Will I still be able to drive back home after I graduate?
Will my corpse be brought to my grave on a bicycle?

Will there still be petrol?

The dinosaurs must be laughing their ass off in heaven..and perhaps God is chuckling too..

Ah well, nothing wrong with riding a bicycle..skateboards might rise in popularity too...
Lets just see what happens...:/

Funny DoTA hero quotes!

2008-06-02T20:12:00.000-07:00

And again..this post goes to all DoTA fans out there..

So..right. Most people think DoTA is a seriously serious strategy game, requiring all the wits and smarts you can muster...causing you to disable your laughing ability and eventually producing an uncanny facial expression throughout the game..like this:-

- gambar hiasan (okay, this is juz same random pic so i cud make my point;p)

Neway.
..after reading this post I assure you..your paradigm on DoTA shall never be the same again..MUAHAHAHA:)
Awww...cmon..we do need laughter while playing DoTA don't we..:)

I was playin a game yesterday..and I used Nevermore. Out of boredom I clicked on him several times while waiting for the creeps to spawn...and i found out some hidden quotes, sumting Nevermore never said before.. and it was so unbelievably funny! (unbelievable, for something funny to be said by a creature as scary-looking as that..) Here's what he said:-

NEVERMORE - THE SHADOW FIEND
"*trit trit triiiiiiiit!*(phone rings) WHAT? Urgh! For the LAST time, I'm a DREAD LORD, not a DRUG LORD!!"
"If I have wings....why...am I always walking?'

Hahaha...Imagine Nevermore saying sumting like that.. It suddenly makes the gameplay much funnier.. I guess that only happens if u click on them many times eh:)
I was curious about the other heroes, so I tried this trick on some others..

And heres what I got(only the ones that I think are funny..):-

ZEUS - LORD OF OLYMPIA
"You wanna get em' UNDEAD? Lemme tell you how ta get em' Undead. Their men pulls out a knife, and your men pulls out a gun. They send your men to the HORSPITAL and you send their men to the morgue. Thats how you get em' Undead." (I had to click him several times to get da whole phrase..haha)

SVEN - THE ROGUE KNIGHT
"Darkness...needs to get ADSL. This line is ALWAYS busy!"
"The Legion..needs a better DENTAL plan. These FANGS are killing me!"
"Dreadlords....do it in the dark...hahaha"
-Sven?ADSL? Hahahahahaha..-

AGGRON STONEBREAKER - OGRE MAGI
"I'm with stupid..me too!" "*Burps* He did it...NO! HE DID IT!!"
"*Loud fart* ehehehehehe...." "SO ANGRYYYYYY....so hungry........"

-cute pair, these two...-

RAIGOR STONEHOOF - EARTHSHAKER
"Hey, what are these letters burned on my ass?"
" *Sound of glass breaking* 'Sorry.' "
"Got milk?"

LINA INVERSE - SLAYER
"Click me baby, one more time."
"Maybe you should get a strategy guide."
"For the end-of-the-world spell, press Control, Alt, Delete."

TRAXEX - DROW RANGER
"I went on a job interview the other day and they were like; 'Ugh whats that smell', and I was like; 'Oh sorry its me', and then they said they didnt think I would be able to fit in with the other employees cause they were living and you know I'm dead so I wouldn't be a team player, but then I said I could work 24 hours and they said;
'Allright, you can work the graveyard shift'." (damn hard to get this one..)

MAGINA - ANTIMAGE (this is one funny fella)
"Demon blood is thicker than .. er... regular .. blood."
"You will perish in flames *coughs*, I'm sorry."
"Darkness called, but I was on the phone so I missed him. I tried to star 69 Darkness, but his machine picked up. I yelled: 'PICK UP THE PHONE DARKNESS',
but he ignored me. Darkness must have been screening his calls."

NORTROM - SILENCER
"I smell magic in the air....or maybe barbecue"
"Yeah, you can get a nickle for boosting starfall, but jacking heals at ten day stints in county, now lifting fairy fire, they just let you go for that, its not even worth the paperwork, but reincarnate, man.. that WILL get you life." (what the hell?)

BALANAR - NIGHT STALKER
"I'll take a huge, juicy, bloody bite out of ... what were we talking about?"
"Dont worry about the fine print, the soul consumption clause is never excercised."
" *torture sounds* "And that concludes our demonstration, any questions?"
(He's one cynical guy eh..)

ANUB'ARAK - NERUBIAN ASSASIAN
"And they say, blizzard games dont have bugs.."
"I'm the fifth of The Beatles.."

SLARDAR - SLYTHERIN GUARD
"In the depths, no one can hear you scream..er..well they can, but its really muffled.."
"I think I have swimmers ear.."
"This world will be mine, and I'll start with the swimming pools!"
"No sink shall be safe from world domination!"

KEL'THUZAD - THE LICH KING
"The cult of the damned...I need to print more brochures.."
"I always wanted to start my own religion, so I did!"
"50,000 gold a year in child care and they call it a cult??"
" Urgggghhhh... this horn thing on my head is killing me..."

Phew..These are only some of the heroes I've ever used..haven't tried everyone yet.. But I'm sure there are more surprises out there in the DoTA world to be discovered:)

Tell me if there are some more funny ones:) Or even better...PM me*winks*
DoTAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Kristofer Dahl! XD XD XD

2008-05-24T17:52:00.000-07:00

He's uhm...
Not exactly your everyday Yngwie Malmsteen with heavy make-up and looooong loooong
metal hair..(no worries, malmsteen is still beyond godlike in my heart)

Not exactly well-known..does not lead in a famous band..

Just some simple middle aged Swedish guy, with awesome guitar solos n speed, dedicating his time as a teacher for guitar enthusiasts..He has his own methods for playing guitar..and he posts free guitar lessons on youtube:) (don't we all like free stuff, and aren't we all YOUTUBErs..)

cute:)..
well not the i-must-have-six-packs-large-deltoids-cool-hair-cool-fashion kind of cute..
eeee...metrosexual guys..(are they even cute, really?)

He's the funny, witty, intelligent, stay-at-home, simple, and silently awesome kind of cute..
My kind of cute:)

Mr Kristofer:)

Watch his videos, they're funny and helpful if you want to learn great guitar methods:)
Here are some of my favorites..

Play guitar like Zakk Wylde!!!!

Things to play when you suck...funny video:)

enjoy...

Sabahan Stephen Chow

2008-05-24T08:54:00.000-07:00

Another brilliat dub by Hawkeye..

Sorilah arms, I couldn't resist the urge to post this vid...
this video must be made known to the whole world maaaaaan!!!!!!
well...at least, for sabahans lah...haha.

I can't stop laughing watching this video...Don't watch this if the amount of urine in your bladder exceeds 250ml.... hahahahahaahahahaah!!!!!

GG client - Tempat perkumpulan kiasu2 sedunia

2008-05-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

D.O.T.A!!!
- defense of the ancients or defense of total assholes?

ok....main2 ja ah. I'm a DoTA fan too no worries..

Gg client!!! Garena....My..uhm... last resort to play DoTA with humans..

And if ur a GG player, u'll know what gg stands for of course.
G.O.O.D.G.A.M.E.Rs.....
Good gamers indeed...*senyum sekambing yang boleh*

I've been playing on Garena for only about a week now..and I've seen the most KIASUest humans I've ever met..
Even the sina2 santung yg kiasu mau matai in my class can never beat these people.. (But they're still kiasu lah...haha)
KIASUness, KIASUisme, keKIASUan in its most purest form..can only be found on Garena!!!

Ok, for those who don't know..or have never came across this term before.. here's a brief intro about the origins:)

KIASU. You would find this word in a Manglish dictionary.. categorized under negative adjectives. Adopted from the word Kia Su (err...i don't think it makes any difference) of the Hokkien dialect which roughly means TAKUT KALAH.

Anyway.

I'd like to share with you an annoying incident I've recently encountered on a DoTA match in Garena.

WARNING - this will ultimately lead to the conclusion that ggplayers could be kiasu, so if YOU'RE a ggplayer and u want to keep the good feeling and PRO-ness of being one, or if ur boyfriend or mum or dad or grandparents or pet are ggplayers and u love them very much, or if u think the world is only populated by ggplayers, please stop reading.. I wouldn't want to disrupt anyone's mindsets... hehehe..

There was this guy who created a game(don't they always?), and I entered(not trying to speak dirty aite..). Bla bla bla. wait wait wait. chat chat chat while waiting. maki maki maki. cina cina cina(sy tidak faham apa drg maki jd sy diam ja) -ar? -ap? whatever. Okay. sentinel scourge suma full. 5..4..3..2..1..start game. Usual procedure. Ho hum.

This game i got is on all pick...so u can pick the heroes u want to use. I picked my alltime facourite..Aiushtha The Enchantress!!!!

wooooooooooot!!!!! Late game..tp sanang2 Beyond Godlike...
The host picked Zeus The Lord of Olympia..

Hero paling bikin panas!

....and he's a scourge. Alamak. Sy sentinel la pulak.. hmm. ah well. *shrugs*
In less then 15 seconds the host put on -wtf mode..

gembira la konon, coz without the cooldown Aiushtha can easily pwn people with her 1st atk..

IMPETUSSSSSSS!!!!!!! Larila kamuuuuuu....hahaha...
BUT!!!!!

after everyone got to level 6 and above..then the fun starts to ebb away. BECAUSE!!!!!!

The dratted Zeus guy stayed near his fountain and uses his Thundergod's Wrath over n over again(with no cooldown) and pwnd every sentinel hero(including mine)he could lay his...uhm...ultimate on... and imagine, baru jalan skit ja suda mati. Crazy guy..
and to top all that he type a really long hahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahhaa on the chat screen for everyone to see...

ULTIMATE KIASUNESS!!!!

well. Thats only ONE incident.

If ur thinking of going gg...get ur REAL friends to play with u... friends you know who won't leave when they're losing..or just play in a cyber cafe..good ol' LAN.

..does time really heal?

2008-05-21T01:42:00.000-07:00

Common question eh. Especially for those who are very heartbroken and is very much in pain..

sigh..

I read an article about this in a magazine somewhere...(it's a boring nerdy intelectual magazine - i forgot the title already;p)
Here's wat it says..
'Time is a series of events; so each new event flows into the next but with a series of steps (horizons) which we perceive. We have a choice. We can flow with these or choose to change these horizons.

We can let things just happen and go along with what happens; as in the song 'que sera sera'. This is when we submit to what happens; and let time do to us what it will. In the context of time healing; it will heal the wounds slowly by changing how we see what has happened, and by bringing eventually a new and fresh means of happiness.

The opposite is when we choose to make the best of a situation and look towards the future. To make the future what we want it to be. This way we are more in control but the risk is self-reliance. In this sense, we can either make the wounds heal slower or faster depending on the steps we take in doing so.'

Well...I believe time exists because distance exists.
If you think about it, really, niether of them do. They are used more so in comparison to scales. Big or little. Its the difference between one piece of matter and another. Think about it. The only reason you have to walk to the fridge...is because your not big enough to already be at the fridge. The "smaller" you are, the more time it takes to travel a distance. Smaller being compared to....what already was.(the fridge...or a point ) And bigger in the same respect. Speed is the ability to cover "Larger" quantities of ground/distance in comparison to the vessels size. People call a remote control car which can do thirty mph..fast. It is compared to other remote control cars, but not in the grande schemata of things... (sorry for the lame n blunt analogy, I'm not that good in flowery poetry or stuff like that;p)

Time allows a process.
Step by step.
One foot in front of the other.
And clearly healing is a process...

so does time heals all wounds? this is true, in a sense..
Time itself does not heal the wound, but rather the one who is wounded.
Only he or she has the power to tell one's self that it is no longer and issue and has obtained some kind of closure and move on from the incident. Time, taken by the affected for closure, is what heals the wound...i guess. But then..like physical wounds...they're bound to be scars kan. And i suppose scars are similar like memories.. something u leave behind.

Thats why some people don't heal from their pain. Coz they keep picking their scars and disrupt the process of healing..

Gosh, I can't believe what i learnt in basic pathology can be applied to ethereal subjects such as this...hehe...

But I'm sure Time Does heal. It allows opportunity for a process. Healing is a process.... healing is a process...
(Sumting like the penaakulan mantik thingy we used to learn back in form 3 eh..)

Whether it takes ten years...or .10 seconds. Time does heal..kan?
Which doesnt mean death isnt imminent:)

I hope my healing process won't take long.
Hope my heart's strong enuf for that...
sigh.

Forgive me..and Thanks..

2008-05-18T04:51:00.000-07:00

K. The title says it.
This is my 1st time blogging..also my 1st time UNDERSTANDING blogs
(ok, ur raising ur eyebrows, fine..)
so forgive me for the..uhm..naiveness.
I'll put more stuff worthy of reading soon..

I'd like to offer my thanksgiving(mcm di church pula) to these people, who never cease to amaze me with their wonderfully witty and interestingly comic posts.. Thanks for the inspiration, my dearest pals:
Danny and Armstrong(a.k.a Uhmstrawng)..hehe.